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“I have feelings too. I am still human. All I want is to be loved, for myself and for my talent." - Marilyn Monroe
Feeling just a tad upset that i couldn’t attend today’s Jiong gathering but then again, i thought back to what laoshi told us eons ago about how sacrifices have to be made in the journey to pursue your dreams and suddenly its not that bad. Time spent on playing can be better spent in practicing! 
Today is one of the few and rare days when i actually do not expect myself to do well, just telling myself that i’ll just sing whatever they want me to sing and try to do what i can… this is after always expecting alot from myself and just failing to deliver. And for some reason, i managed to do quite okay! Like, its a rock song that we still have not learnt to emote to and seriously speaking, i did not get much parts (upset at the beginning but afterwards i got over it) but somehow i jus felt good about myself instead of feeling depress! wow oh wow!
Seriously, music is my life. :) I’m damn proud to say that.

Feeling just a tad upset that i couldn’t attend today’s Jiong gathering but then again, i thought back to what laoshi told us eons ago about how sacrifices have to be made in the journey to pursue your dreams and suddenly its not that bad. Time spent on playing can be better spent in practicing! 

Today is one of the few and rare days when i actually do not expect myself to do well, just telling myself that i’ll just sing whatever they want me to sing and try to do what i can… this is after always expecting alot from myself and just failing to deliver. And for some reason, i managed to do quite okay! Like, its a rock song that we still have not learnt to emote to and seriously speaking, i did not get much parts (upset at the beginning but afterwards i got over it) but somehow i jus felt good about myself instead of feeling depress! wow oh wow!

Seriously, music is my life. :) I’m damn proud to say that.

Seeing the three of them screaming their heads off with anger, I wonder if their anger will disappear if I had jumped down there n then… Maybe sadness will take over. Even tt is a more mellow emotion than seeing them angry at their own flesh n blood. They looked like monsters. Becos only monsters will want to fight their own family I noe I have a mission in this life for something greater. Therefore I choose to sit infront of the altar to chant till they awaken n realised the ugly words they have spoken in e heat of the moment..n

Something’s gotta give.

I really thought i could juggle work, school and all my other music commitments. But today i realized i really couldn’t. Yes, i’m attending all these activities but seriously i’m lacking in practice for all these things that i’ve taken up. Something’s gotta give. I’m pretty sure i know in my heart what it is.

[INTERVIEW] 120503 EXO-K, The intense survival law that is debuting under SM

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Debuting under SM Entertainment, one of the country’s best entertainment management companies, is known to be a difficult task. They went through, from one to seven years of preparation before debuting. They can’t ignore the amount of harsh training they went through but the competition between the company’s trainees was, of course, really intense. This is the reason why rookie groups debuting under SM always gather the interest of many. EXO-K’s six members D.O, Kai, Suho, Chanyeol, Sehun and Baekhyun who recently debuted with “MAMA” all already passed these tests once. SM’s rookies of 2012, EXO-K, all personally went through this survival.

Firstly, the leader, Suho had been a trainee in SM Entertainment for 7 years before debuting. He has seen some of his juniors debut before him and he was deeply hurt every time it happened.

“Honestly, I’ve wanted to give up a lot of times. But I worked hard. That’s the truth. Working on my mind control also helped me a lot. I think the reason why I managed to endure it during 7 years is because I believed I would succeed if I worked hard. I can’t ignore the help of my seniors in this company either.”

Chanyeol, who was cast when he was a freshman in high school, went through four years of training and decided to push ahead with his forte.

“Since I was going to debut as a part of a team, I wanted to show I could be better than anyone else. When I was young, I used to play the drums so I thought my sense of rhythm was a little bit better than the others’. Compared to my other friends, my strong point is rapping and I showed I was able to do better than the others. I told myself if there was something I was the best at, then this part would belong to me.”

Sehun, who went through four years of training after being cast for the first time in 6th grade, picked a similar strategy. However, Sehun’s weapon was dance.

“When I was young, I just loved dancing. I believed I was better than the others at it. But dancing isn’t just something you can do just by following what the others do. Just like the choreographers and dancers who are recognized worldwide who continuously find and work on new dances, I realized I had to make efforts to be able to do better than the others.”

Joining the team after being a trainee for just a year, Baekhyun, who is the member who had the shortest training time, was very lucky. “I of course think I had good luck. (Laughs) When I first entered the company, I thought all the other trainees were more talented than me. There were lots of friends who were good looking, good dancers and good at singing. I think this is because of this first experience I managed to debut with EXO-K. It inculcated a will to surpass them in me. If I didn’t work harder than the others then it wouldn’t have worked.”


Kai has been mastering dance by started to learn ballet and jazz dance since primary school. He entered SM as a trainee in eight grade and debuted after five years of training.

“Dancing was of course what I was the best at. However instead of working diligently, I was enjoying myself. After having danced ballet only, I had fun learning other dances and mastering them. I think being able to enjoy what I was doing instead of just working hard is the reason I managed to debut with EXO-K”

As expected from D.O who belongs to the vocal line, his biggest advantage was his singing abilities. Because he likes to sing, D.O entered all sorts of singing competitions and ultimately went through two years of training before debuting.

“I needed to show my own vocal color. To be honest, I have a lot of friends who are good at singing. To be able to show my vocal abilities fully, I needed to practice our country’s ballads’ perfectly, and find a way to express the sensibility found in R&B and soul songs. The thing I was concerned the most about was the way to make my voice tone sound different than the other singers’.”

Each of the six members sure experienced the survival law. The standard in the company was to give one’s 120%. Their willpower had to be greater than the others. However, the most important thing was to realize who they were. And aside from that, it was about the efforts they were showing.

source : Star Today

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[INTERVIEW] 120504 - EXO-K '6 members, 6 colors' introducing myself

A new group came out from SM Entertainment 2 years ago, but EXO-K is the first male idolgroup after 4 years. With them appearing, this year’s competition for the rookie singer award is getting even more fierce. They started on March 31st with their showcase, with the song ‘MAMA’ EXO-K is currently promoting, it’s the revival of SM Entertainment’s performance music (SMP) that disappeared after DBSK, this makes the fans emotional. We’re introducing to you EXO-K’s 6 members’ charms that have 6 colors different from the strong men’s image we see on stage.

# The group’s guardian, leader Suho

“My biggest charm is of course my heart that cherishes and loves the members. As the leader who guards the member, my name became Suho (T/N: Guardian in Korean) too. Since I started my training in 2006, I’ve been a trainee for the longest time.”

# Bronzed dancing machine Kai

“My speciality is dancing. Like ballet, jazz, hip-hop, popping, etc. My role in the team is…, the darkness (of his skin)? I’m the one with with the sexy bronzed skin. Isn’t that why I’m the one wearing the sleeveless outfit?(laughs)”

# Musician ‘National Good Teeth’ Chanyeol

“My charms are my low voice and my nice teeth?(laughs) People around me call me ‘National Good Teeth’. I also know how to play the guitar, drums, bass, and the djembe. My specialities are rapping and acting.”

# Eyeliner charming man Baekhyun

“My charm is my eyeline? My double eyelids aren’t really visible. You can feel the eyeliner’s breathtaking charm.(laughs) I’m a man that combines the manliness’ appeal with the hapkido and the sensitivity too with the piano.”

# 3 minutes chef D.O

“My everything is a charm. I’m always sincere. I can even cook well. There’s that cooking that ‘you can do in 3 minutes’. I’m even developping a new menu. Like putting kimchi in the pasta. There’s also the method of serving food when the members are starving.” (T/N: Meaning that everything tastes good when you’re hungry…)

# Milky skin maknae Sehun

“My biggest charm is of course the cuteness that only the maknae can have. As opposed to Kai hyung I have a milky (T/N: Pale) skin. Because I’m really white, when the two of us are standing next to each other, we get called ‘Black and White’.”

source: sports korea
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Today… wasn’t that awesome. Screwed up my manicure session so i’m still stuck with peeling gelish nails. Greeaatttt.
But if i do count the amount of things i managed to get done, i guess the day was somewhat fruitful. Changed mom’s portable charger head which was loose, went for keyboard classes (learnt transposing as well as played my composition for the teacher to hear and give suggestions in improving).
Bought ice cream for the family becos the weather has been a bitch. Shopped and bought a ELF brush and primer! Happy with the steals i managed to get. Not sure if tml’s recording is still on or not. :\ bummer.
Just finished with some group project research. Shall head off to bed in awhile. Next week will be my full load grooming session. 
Thailand and Aussie… should be headed for these places. ^^ soon.
And i’m taking up one more new activity. o.0

Today… wasn’t that awesome. Screwed up my manicure session so i’m still stuck with peeling gelish nails. Greeaatttt.

But if i do count the amount of things i managed to get done, i guess the day was somewhat fruitful. Changed mom’s portable charger head which was loose, went for keyboard classes (learnt transposing as well as played my composition for the teacher to hear and give suggestions in improving).

Bought ice cream for the family becos the weather has been a bitch. Shopped and bought a ELF brush and primer! Happy with the steals i managed to get. Not sure if tml’s recording is still on or not. :\ bummer.

Just finished with some group project research. Shall head off to bed in awhile. Next week will be my full load grooming session. 

Thailand and Aussie… should be headed for these places. ^^ soon.

And i’m taking up one more new activity. o.0

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nope. totally not mad. Just hurt. I did so much for… ?

nope. totally not mad. Just hurt. I did so much for… ?

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